sick.

im so sick of lots of things now.

I am sick of the world today. evil lingers at every inch of the world.i hate to hear small kids being murdered.i hate to hear houses are being bulldozed to the ground.i hate to hell that the fact ppl are doing absolutely nothing about it, and hate myself too for not bringing any good to the world.

i am sick to see the norms of the world today.killing is a norm.bisexuality, homosexuality, pornography, homicides, excesive alcohol drinking, prostitutions are norms.i hate to see muslims drink alcohol, muslims go to clubs. i am not an angel, i am not pious either. i hate myself for still not be able to be real muslimah. but i hate, i loathe to see my religion to be fooled around.

I am sick of people playing dirty politics.

I am sick of people, society or organizations funding so much money for stuff like concerts, talentshows, entertainment awards and not even bothered about those who are in need.

I am sick of smokers. I am sick of the government working on anti-smoking campaigns, but still, prosper with the massive income cigarettes taxes offer. Smoking is haram, but still I see pak-pak imam light up the cigars on the way to the mosque. For those who smoke, I am sorry if you die sooner than you expect, but hey, you deserve it!

enough hate for today.

teater punya kisah

someone very close to me loves theater so much.he grows up with theater and acting. i never liked such thing. i never liked that particular person to do theaters, apa lagi nak berlakon profesionally. i never wanted to get involved in such thing either. however i signed up for IMU's malay cultural week's thetaer production team. i decided to do so because Muna, the director is a friend of mine, we are in the same batch.kira nak support kawan la ni. she loves theater so much as well. she has lots of experiences, and i have faith that she'll be able to make this year's theater a blast. i signed up, and muna elected me be the stage desingner.i had a teeny weeny experience in stage design back in boarding school, so i accepted the job.so, sejak sebelum puasa haritu, i have worked pretty hard for this theater. awal2 tak terasa penat, tapi about a week before the performance i stayed back late(at around 2am) everynite for the theater.study pun tak berapa.nasib baik the system that time was endocrine, a little lighter than the other systems, so i think i could manage to revisit the system later, maybe?
fast forward a bit...after the first theater , Bukan legasi lalang(it was a classical malay theater)succesfully been performed, i was so excited and i was overwhelmed with satisfaction. most people who came said it was a great theater.mungkin kalau university lain dtg and tgk, they may or may not feel so, i dont know.but who the hell cares, as long as we are satisfied ourselves.let us, IMU students set our own standard.after all, i think it was an entertaining show.
Gadis di kuburan's next.at first i felt that Gadis di Kuburan does not have the 'kick' that BLL has. BLL is good for that it has awesome silat, nice malay dancing, and played by many talented students.sape kata student IMU tau std je?however, GDK is not boring after all.though it has all those long monolouges, and mushy love lines, it has succeeded to entertain people, and shed tears of the audience.(ye ke?lebih2 je aku ni)i feel that GDK has its own strength too.mana tak nye, seminggu aku dok nyanyi lagu pelangi petang tu sorang2.just sad that some ppl and lecturers(who attended GDK) didnt come for BLL.bcos i think Malay culture is more potrayed in BLL. and IMU ppl love silat, dont we?hehe..

sekarang, demam teater belum habis sepenuhnya.it was amazing to join this production team. It has brought me an amazing teamwork spirit(i miss the crews), made me know ppl i didnt ever bothered to know before, esp juniors sem 2 nd 1.and amazingy i also view theater i quite a different way now.dulu, kalau tgk tv, org tak pandai berlakon, kutuk2.skrg baru tau sshnya nak hidupkan emosi tu.(cheh, dh jd orang seni plak).dan dulu2, selalu memperkecilkan benda2 lakonan ni.tp sbnrny, it takes a lot of knowledge, and hardwork to be able to act.tgk skrip je dah punya panjang nak hafal.kalau aku hafal skrip tu, maunye keluar sem 3 punya syallabus dr otak aku. and haritu, baru muna suruh aku berlakon a tiny role(for about 3minutes, aku dah tergelak2 dh)i seriously cant!

orang kata, once we got ourselves involved in this, nanti got addicted.it may be true.tapi teater kat imu setahun sekali, mana nak addicted nye.most probably next year tak join kot such thing, sbb sem depan ada major exam(yay im graduating from Bukit Jalil campus!), but i will still support this kind of events.any events la generally.i think we should always get ourselves involved in co-curricular stuff.so takde la rasa diri ni bosan sangat.join la community service ke(huu if i could turn back time i am going to make sure i attend the weekly community service i'd signed up for back in sem 1), usrah ke, sports(ni i cannot help it la), or anything for the matter of fact.socializing in clubs etc not included yea ppl!

anyway, the point is, joining this event was a cool experience for me.and theater is not boring after all.but strictly for occasional leisure. never more.