cinta

teringat zaman kecik2 dulu..semua orang mabuk nak bercinta.sometimes, when i come to think about it, it makes me laugh.how can little kids(or growing teenagers) indulge so much in love?dulu2 dtg sekolah tak abes2 ingat boyfriend, tulis2 surat(dulu2 takde phone), masa rehat dating2 tepi kantin(aku tak, aku pengawas.hehe)main tarik2 rambut ngn sape yg kacau kita nye pakwe(again, aku takpenah buat.ok?), yg paling common skali, balik skolah sama2(ni penah=P).those days are memorable.ada yg fun smpai tanak lupa, ada yg takmau ingat lagi..skrg tgk budak2 bercinta, rasa nak termuntah..tp dulu2 aku pun sama, tak sedar diri btl.

but when i reach adulthood, love is never for fun anymore.love is not something that we ask, it is something that comes when we least expecting it.memang ramai lagi orang yg sibuk nak carik boyfriend, carik jodoh, ada jgk yg tanak langsung ada boyfriend, tanak mengelakkan terjebak.to have or not to have boyfriend, is not an issue.bila takde boyfriend(or gf) takpayah rasa risau takde jodoh, the time will come. tapi, for those yg anti dgn 'couple2' thingy ni, kena faham,love is not smething that u can just erase or delete. love remains though a relationship does not lasts.to seperate two loving souls is mean.hanya ada satu jalan, nikah.its not always readily possible..ada byk tanggungjawab, and expectations from others.yg perempuan kena faham, how hard things can be for a man to get maried.diorang yg rasa beban, bkn kita.so, nak tak nak, we have to understand.and in the time being, menjaga diri sebelum bernikah(tough part, huh?)

love is not about the fun.though it was before.for me, loving who i love now, is not always easy.it is at the same time fun, but i dont want to love for the sake of the fun and happiness it brings.we have to bear with the hardship that comes along with it.i cherish every happiness, and every hardship love has to offer.


love is not a major thing in life.but still, we need it as a complementary. love is not about going out together, celebrating anniversaries, expressing love in facebook etc etc.love is about companionship.for me, if i have loved the right one, do not ever turn back. take the relationship seriously.i have hurt some people in my life, and i regret that.i do.but i am thankful for it has end my search of true love, and now, i have found (i hope) the true love.

i am really thankful for the fact that we have survived the hardships of love for years now. u r a great person, even there are times i cannot stand u, i am thankful for that. i dont want u to be anyone else but u.i want u to know, i have never taken into account what u have, or what u dont have when i decided to love u.but, because of who you are.i dont love you because of u r hot, or goodlooking(if u really are la), i never cared about that at all.i will even love u the same(or more) when u turn 60, or 70 or 80, when u hv that deep wrinkles on ur face.

this is how love should always be.